Smile...:)

That's all I could ever do when I've realized she's taken!!!...haha
How stupid am I when....uhh, it's hard to picture it really. The worst thing ever is I never had a chance to mention how's my feeling towards her for all this years. The next day I woke up she's all hooked up already. Well everything seems way too late now..knowing she's happy towards her big day soon, I rather to keep it silence.

Mother, sincerely my apology to you. I've failed your dream to see us end up together since we were a kid just don't seems to work anymore. Yes it still fresh in my mind we were playing and doing our quran session together. But It just an old day.

I'm not really sure what to do after this. To be honest I felt like dying from the inside. I've felt the emptiness start to consume my mind space and resonance starts to take place. I'm crying everytime I'm faking a smile.

Mom, maybe I should learn to live with it. Well I use to say exactly the same thing 15 years ago when I've lost you. But this time I plan to build my new life with her. It kinda sweet to imagine how I kiss her every single morning before I go to work. Having tea while seeing our kids playing if we were meant to be together. Haha again, it's just a little dream of mine. Well, life goes on...but this time, without her presents.

Chill...